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Saturday, 20 December 2008
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Relationships
Just a week ago my boyfriend of 10 months ended the relationship. I was heartbroken of course. Sure I was attracted to another guy, but I never did act upon it and was working on dealing with those feelings and seeing why I was having them to my conclusion it was because I wasn't getting enough attention from boyfriend and other guy gives me a ton. So I dealt with that issue: don't give other guy too many chances to give me attention and spend more time with boyfriend if possible.
So anyway I thought things were going good between us. We had an honest relationship to the point where I was comfortable admitting the attraction and that nothing would ever happen because of my love for boyfriend, and he admitted attraction to another woman and agreed that didn't take the love he felt for me away. It did jeopardize our relationship; that was a while ago. We saw each other for Bible Study and things felt weird he was distant and not really looking me in the eye. Which was weird because he always looked me in the eye and even his kisses were different and the way he said goodbye to me. When I talked to him about it he said he was dealing with some things and issues and was thinking you know. I won't say what they were out of respect for him.
Well we saw each other on Saturday and things were of course awkward because after the convo we had two days prior was still on my head...I needed to absorb and deal with what was said. Well he said it was too weird and broke up with me that night. I was in tears. He told me I was a once in a lifetime kind of girl; i asked so why are you letting me go. blah blah blah. It boils down to he started to think of a future with me and us being married and he saw too many hardships that we wouldn't be able to handle and then after all his thinking for weeks without talking to me....he no longer sees a future with me. Can't picture us being married with children the way he was just 4 weeks ago.
BUUUUUT he still calls me every night and is coming over today because he wanted to exchange gifts. Last night he asked if I wanted to go to dinner tonight. Which was odd I mean I know he wants to stay friends and all but to call me every day and then want to take me to dinner...doesn't that sound a little bit odd to you guys?
Currently
Cross Country (Alex Cross Novels)
By James Patterson
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Saturday, 06 December 2008
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oy vey
Recently at work I was in the kiosk inside the mall, you know one of those little places where people stand around waiting for you to come buy something, yea that was me. Well while there I got bored and started dancing in the kiosk. I didn't care. One of the guys from another kiosk came by and picked on me a little and since we've been chatting a little each day. Well I went to get a shirt from them and ended up giving him my number. He is really cute and highly attracted to him (i think it's the spikey purple hair LOL) but anyway I gave him my number and we talked a little yesterday and had a few kisses.
The problem with all this is I have a boyfriend whom I love completely and totally. I am very happy with my boyfriend and I can't imagine my life without him. I have no idea why I allowed the other guy to kiss me or why I kissed back. I know there is a strong, and I mean strong physical attraction there. I'm just drawn to him for some odd reason. But like i said I love my boyfriend I even want to marry him. Other guy isn't going to be in the area for long he moving in a few weeks so it's not even like this could go anywhere. I try to stay away from him and not talk to him, but 1) he is an interesting person I would like to get to know because I am drawn to interesting people, male or female. and 2) it seems the only way i can keep myself from being tempted to chat with him is to quit my job, but I love my job.
I don't know what to do. I mean I should stay as far away from other guy as possible. I mean with my boyfriend there is so much there, but He is so darn busy I barely get to see him, not that I am making athat a condition from my love or anything like that. I don't mind that he has a lot to do, I just wish I could see him more and be with him more.
Sunday, 23 November 2008
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Rudeness
If you haven't noticed I am someone who is strong and grounded in my faith, it is very important to me as is praying and relying on God for things. Recently an older lady in my church who is also friends with my family had a familly health issue, her great grandson was born way prematurely. Of course his lungs haven't believed right, he is 6months at this point, he was doing very good until a few weeks ago. We got a call for the prayer chain that young Brayden had taken a turn for the worse and the nurses where telling the family to take the baby off the respirators and "just let him die."
Well being believers in God and having faith seeing how far God has brought this little baby so far, the family said "no we have faith that God would heal him and if it is in his will God would take him." The nurses called them so many rude things one of which being inhuman because they kept him on teh respirator. Then another nurse had the audacity to say "take him off the respirator and then see what your God will do." I couldn't believe it when my friend told us this! I was furious that a medical professional would say something like this to a grieving family who are praying for the safety and health of this young child.
Well we heard yesterday that the baby is doing better. All of his vital signs are back. He is breathing on his own with the help of a trac that they put in this week. He is doing a whole let better and of course we attribute that to our prayers and faith in God. If the family had taken the respirator off, the baby well would have died too early it seems. Prayer is a powerful thing and so is faith. But even if you don't have the same faith as others, or you don't believe what they do. I still think it is wrong to criticize them for it and say rude things. I would never imagine telling someone of a different faith they are wrong, inhuman or say something like "take him off the resporator and see what your God will do." that is just so inconsiderate and rude and so many other things I cannot think of.Currently
Cross Country
By James Patterson
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Tuesday, 18 November 2008
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Surprise
So about a week or two ago, my loving boyfriend told me he bought me something, when I asked what it was he told me he couldn't tell me. It was a surprise. I didn't get to get when I saw him next because it wasn't the right time. I had to wait til the "time was right" he said. The thought of it has been driving me insane! I told him he cannot just tell me that he bought me something and then not tell me cause then I will keep wondering what it is. I told him if he wants something to be a surprise don't tell me he bought me something.
Well this past Saturday he told me I would get to get my surprise on Wednesday (tomorrow). I am so excited I can't wait to see what my surprise is. I asked a few questions for hints like is it smaller than a breadbox (of course it is) and I asked if it was shiney and he said parts of it is. So my mind has been wondering as to what this surprise could be. My mom says it's an engagement ring, but I don't think so after a few of our discussion, but I would be extremely happy if it was....oh I can't wait!
Currently
Showdown: A Paradise Novel (The Books of History Chronicles)
By Ted Dekker
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Tuesday, 11 November 2008
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Flat Belly
Since I started gaining weight after the cancer, I also developed that dreaded belly pouch. All women hate this belly pouch and makes us feel so insecure right ladies?? Well for the past few months I have been working on getting rid of that pouch with working out, and eating right. I have also been looking at different websites to see what I could find to help me lose that belly fat. Through those searches I stumbled across the Belly Fat Diet. It is supposed to help you lose weight without all the exercise, but I thought with the exercise maybe it would be more beneficial since I need to exercise anyway to help keep my body healthy.
Belly Fat Diet was created for everyone who has tried everything imaginable to lose that fat, but nothing seemed to work. It was developed by the editor of Prevention Magazine (I've seen it in the doctor's offices have you?). It has nutrition plans as well as advice and tips to help you along the way. They say you can lose up to 15 pounds in 32 days! I kind of find that hard to believe, but it wouldn't hurt to try it right? They are currently looking for women who would like to try it. In return you would receive.- A free copy of the Flat Belly Diet book
- A free 1-year membership to the Flat Belly Diet website
- Exclusive membership to our Success Story Club
- The chance to blog about Flat Belly Diet on our website
- First look at exclusive Flat Belly Diet videos
Felrna
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